this is written in 2006..

at first glance 2005 is a year to be forgotten.. or in another sense.. there is nothing spectacular to remember.. i was wrong..

a senior citizen

i feel older.. i dont mean in terms of maturity.. i cant realli run these days.. i dont have that kinda energy which i enjoyed when i was still young.. i cant stand for too long.. i gets tired easily.. this year had been slow moving for me.. i realised i was walkin slower and slower.. its so grey..


this month i m like on a death row.. waitin to enter to sit on old sparky .. so i cant fully enjoy everything i do..

雨天的手啊牵著你的衣袖
雨天的温柔总是选错拥挤时候
雨天的小指头骚动我虚有的乡愁
this winter it didnt snow again.. just rain.. dont u think the snow in perhaps love is beautiful.. but not as beautiful as zhou xun.. this year i have been tryin to seek beauty in the game of soccer.. yeah i was quite satisfied that there was some results.. but its the rain that spoiled the fun again.. besides i dont like the korean too..

this year has been a little lonely..
不论过多久还是会寂寞..

reported by ivna @ 11:58 PM

Imagine

of course this is a popular john lennon song.. sometimes i jus could not figure out wat is good music.. but presently i think that music should make an impact.. it should gives someone strength or should provoke new thoughts.. it should be something that you can tell your grandchildren that "hey music should be something like this".. something that we can pass down to the next generations..

reported by ivna @ 1:17 AM

男人 change fast.. i mean in terms of taste..

男人 like 超快感.. not the sunyanzi song.. if u enjoy joggin.. most probably u hav never ride in a turquoise porsche before..

男人就是这样..

这里的景色像你变幻莫测..
昨日的单纯今天的实际像你..
而你也早已不是你..

reported by ivna @ 11:11 PM

Imagine

last night was prom night.. there were twenty-five of my classmates sittin on the stage.. none of them were realli my ferns.. several of the boys enjoyed beatin me up.. and i never dated any of the girls.. i didnt feel important.. i didnt feel lovable.. holdin that diploma on stage was the culmination of some of the most difficult years of my life.. prom nites are not as glamorous and enjoyable as one may imagine it to be..

reported by ivna @ 2:30 AM

to carry on readin u must agree that sometimes dreams convey messages or display fears that were forced into the subconscious..

the scariest recurring nightmares are not those u saw in the recent harry pooter movie.. its not dreaming about the same thing again and again.. its your daily dreams are of similar plot.. conveyin the same message.. the difference is it is acted out by different characters and happened in different settings.. fear should not be the thing dreams are made of..

reported by ivna @ 1:28 AM

like stonez..
not any pebble along the the stoneway..
jus a good fren of mine..
i began to love joggin..
simply bcos it feels great..
it may be me runnin against the air..
or the breeze rushin towards me..
it doesnt matter..
it just washes away my sins..
it just washes away my nightmares..
it just washes away my fears..

reported by ivna @ 12:39 PM