Renaissance�
new face, old style. fruitless, workin towaRds simplicity beauty. the fontz for tiz site iz juicy.
lonG lonG dayz
tiz change in life did not begin on thursday. it began when my the thoughts in my mind changed. every single soul knowz clearly wat they want? i knew what i want, but the saddest tiK iz that i dUn woRk towarDz it. that was in the past. When u choose to hav a positive attitude, tiKz juz go smoothly, notiK goes wrong. Many thing happened, but notiK had brought me down yet. many ppl crossed my path: wenyang, yirui, bingxin, huiqi, weixiang, tyan tyan and max. they taught me, allowed me to pull through and shut my world from emptiness.
i slept at 6am on a friday morning. SumtiK held me back from my dreamz. sumtiK so strong, so intimidating and ambiguious. an acquaintance i supposed; flippin my longman comtemporary diCk: someone you know, but not close to. this person n i can show what this world iz realli lyk now. it was a face.off of human nature, a clash of titanz? this person iz hard to catch, lyk me maybE. to me, tis person iz a mirror. Who do i fear in my life? fear of each other has kept us apart, a hostility that froze such an ice wall between us. it was onli yeZdae i took a hammer, he managed a flame thrower, that realli created a hole in tiz pointless iceberg. i hav to be honest, meltin process iz not over yet. since many soulz aruged tat we live in a cold cold world, it's not easy to melt tiz shit. it's over a decade, i goin to throw out my trust again. i dUNno what e resultz will be, but i m goin to try. since notik can stop me frm tryin, i told myself " why not". maybe i will juz fall fer another scam, maybe i will juz fall fer another trap, maybe i will juz fall into a dark dark pit n nvr crawl out again.
presently, i haD feLL into 1 pit, there was a candle at first n i enjoyed the warmth. the flame gradually melted the wax and left me in total darkness. i nvr close my eyes since, coz it make no diFF. it's only in darkness tt u will bother to look at thingz carefully. soulz treasure wat they lost, but not tikz around them. optimism, a little of Ah Q spirit and faith allowed me to enjoy darkness. there iz beauty in everitiK, it takez effortz to identify it. there are voicez callin me to climb out of tiz pit, but i m still down there. i made my choice.
the past few dayz, so happenin, so hip hop, so machichiyoh... elated?