Perfect Day..

Woke up before 12 fer once. Jumped on my mother, wished her a great bDae. Did not giF her anitiK, but wat i did 2dae iz priceless. i finalli listen to her. i finalli noE wat family meanz to mE, n its more impt den anitiK in my life. i t0ld my mum straight in her face i love her, ferst time in my life, she juz said, "siaM, dun try to be funny". tt dun make me sad, it does not matter, i did wat i shu do, tellin e person how much i realli care fer her.

Did hwk, i m so glad, aimed to be a mugger, veri hard lehz, not easy at aLL.. my mum iz impressed by mE, tt i actuaLLi can keep myself in e room doin woRk. she hinted to me her bDae wish, tiK she juz hoped tt i can spend more time at home with her, n realli treasure e time wiF my family. Went to joG as usuaL, den came back to make dinner with my mum. realised i can make sushi, not tt baD haHEz. owaEz told my mum i muz learn cookin frm her, but nvr realli did it, so sad. tiLL now, i onli noE how to cook rice, fry egg, maGGi mEE and notiK more. whole family sat together to watch matrix, wonderfuL, changed my opinion on tis show.

2dae iz reaL gooD. i got rid of all my miseries n worries. i did sumtik great n painfuL, tiK it's better to be tis way. i made a choicen hope i was right, the only tiK i regreyt iz: i duNNo wat went wrong, m i at fault or i was wrong frm e start. nvm`, at least it's all over now, i wanna play soccer.

reported by ivna @ 12:52 AM

[Important Announcement]
To all jUk ppl out there readin my blog

> iVna` will be start to blog constantly liaoz, lyk wat i did laZ time.
> New phase of life began with tis post.
> All ajc retard pls surrender ur emaiL to POW: serendipitysilver@hotmail.com fer yahohogrp..
> all ajc retarDz again; thurZ 29/4 outin, hopefulli iz steamboat. post comment on yahohogrp.
> team canoe created
> apology to 2K cultistz, cant go wiF u ppl. will not hav chance to watch matrix2, cuZ bRuce almighty iz better.
> hcjc won all squash eventz, not suRz abt vbaLL
> registration fer big walk postponed
> most impt, iVna` is back to his normal form, i feel high high

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Until the roof.....
The roof comes off....
Until my legs
Give out form underneath me

I will stand taLL
I wiLL not faLL
Feelz lyk no one can beat me

Eminem - 'Till I Collapse

reported by ivna @ 12:36 AM

[]WeekDayz Review

Thurs:
marist gatherin. lost all my street soccer gamez. went aJc. ate aj iCe[delwyn, weilin, weiyanG, kenbang], miss it simply. ruben won. slept at 2, prepared fer viet war test.

Fri:
sally was absent, no hist test, regret studyin. 3.5 periods of PW killed me. skip trg. capriccio, band concert. had an adventure and reached home at 12.

Tml:
rjc vs hcjc squash. vbaLL comp, hcjc iz out liaoz, hope the cow win tml [saw her at j8 on weD] n thomas84 break his leg. trg at sdba 0930. later activities r stiLL not defined.

*** iVna` has quit IRC (Quit (dEprEssioN iz gooD, u haV to faLL suMtiMes b4 climBiN uP))

reported by ivna @ 2:00 AM

*** Now talking in #hcanoe
*** Topic is 'Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will.'
*** Set by kepkee on Mon May 19 22:53:47

Lazy.. so lazy.. haven put in my best] erractic schedules] abnormal nightlife] life gettin hard] harder than i tot]
Realli tiK i lead a life lyk xiaobao n hav e same mindset lyk him, onli diFF iz i dun hav as many wives as him. saya juz concerned to be happy n satisfied for the present moment, nvr realli care abt e futurez.. i nvr take a real firm stand on issues, caught in th middle.. haiz. sum ppl r juz meant to be alone

reported by ivna @ 12:24 AM

Cause sometimes you just feel tired.
You feel weak and when you feel weak,
You feel like you wanna just give up.
But you gotta search within you,
You gotta find that inner strength
And just pull that shit out of you a
Ad get that motivation to not give up
And not be a quitter,
No matter how bad you wanna just fall flat on your face
And collapse.

reported by ivna @ 5:42 PM

[]Serious blogging

Recognized the fact that i had not blog for long after zhiping told me todae durin lep. It has been such a long time, so extensive that i m too lazy to count the time of not bloggin. Life is a struggle, a meaing endeavour, so don't bother to count your days, make your days count.

# My Audacious Dream

I pray to DUNNO WHO that i do not hav to blog again. I wish that my emotions n feelins will not be related to blogger.com anymore. I hope i have an alternative, another medium where my prayers could be heard. I desire only a pair of ears that hear my sorrows, not dozen pairs of eyes. Dream, all these were just a dream, better wake up.

reported by ivna @ 2:23 AM

There's never a wrong time to pick up a phone or send a message telling your friends how much you miss them or how much you love them.
If you love someone, tell them.
Remember always to say what you mean.
Never be afraid to express yourself.
Take this opportunity to tell someone what they mean to you.
Seize the day and have no regrets.

reported by ivna @ 1:00 AM

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reported by ivna @ 3:37 AM

[] WHAT ARE FRIENDS FOR

Day had bad start, mood had bad swing and thoughts had bad flow. Time spent on history essay killed my sleep. i missed the early bus again, tml muz get to sch early for once. Read "walk left, walk right" for the second time on the bus, had to appreaciate it, simple beautiful piece of art work, really enjoyed it, wonder what the movie will be like: no conversationz at all?

Day should never start with pE, should not even start with NAPFA test, not mentioning 2.4km run. No spirit to actualli begin joggin, i was runnin with my head pointing towards the ground, eyes were not lookin to the front, how to focus:. Ran with jj by my side, jj got second n i got third, squasher jonathan got 9:15, wahz, JJ n i knew we could have done better, nvm` at least got an A. Did not eat a meal after 2.4, tired my first banana juice with yc, taste reaL different. Dao a lot of people 2daE, felt so down n sad, sorri to these ppl. Seriously, dun hav the energy to say hi back when u ppl greeted mE. CuZ 2dae, i juz could not wait for sch to enD. Feel so bad when the person u wish u had beside u isnt with u.

Sch finaLLi enDz:.
met raymond n took caB with him to NIE. watched the fantastic water polo match. Saw a lot of old fWenz: alvyn, changjian and zhao ming. HCJC.ACJC game ended in a tie, imagine a strong-willed hc team cumin back frm 4goalz down to equalise. Score:5.5; extra time of 2 quaters of 3minz. able to smell real stiff competition over there, while the hwachong family kept on cheerin and cheerin. extratimE: Diyan scored the winninG goaL: caught the ball with a hand, turned n made the most important throw of the day. Powerful, velocity of the ball disapproved ac keeper to block it. diyan was just lyk ronaldo, got cheered n became the spotlight of the game. Felt so happy for hcjc, haiz tchs lost b diV..

Rendezvous. 3mth tchs.ajciaN meetin at j8 1830. The only event tat i waited for, really long time no see the good buddies, for a long long time, we had not met. Took bus back to hcjc to meet up with kenneth. Then yanwei joined us and we set off for j8 while Delwyn was still in njc tryin to show off how far he can throw. Weilin and Koon Yin were already at bishan mrt when we got there, they just finished watching x2. Soon, kok boon arrived n entertained us with his power jokes. Then followed by POW and delwyn. We had our feast at pastamania, each of us ordered a pasta and shared two 10.incher pizzas. No doubt it was another session of toK coK, jokes and pure fun. Koonyin is still the best candidate to cum up with jokes tat can make all of us laFF until puke. 2dae, he was in his very best, he kept talking n talking, most of the time his words r targetted at POW. Every1 enjoyeD, miss the fun we had last time, rare to have 8 men (perfect attendance) to sit down and talk. The atmosphere was so gooD tat there was no single moment of silence. Everi1 Kept talkin, toK abt present live in diFF jc, compare uniform and aLL could not help to admit tat time realli flies.The whole pastamania restaurant was so noisy, packed with 8 crazy guys who had not met for so long, the best was the mess we created: diasy n fruit tree packs tat we bought frm cold storage and ken' beer canz. Den we went to the top floor of j8, to sum ultra neo.prnt machine, where 8 fools tried to squeeze in front of the camera. We spent $16 on this stupid japanese machine tat we had not idea how to operate. We produced some weird pics, hahEz. we only get to spend lyk 2 hours together, but quality tis time really proves an edge over qunatity. When we look ard, look at each other, we would juz wonder wat are friends for, todae's gathering definitely answered tis qn. i look at the 7 palz around mE, i m glad tat i m fortunate to haV such fWenz and told myself to remember them for the rest of my life.

Yanwei: botaK, sinner, kazaa expert user, evil and secret, maid...
Weilin: soccer crazy, love to spend his time with sum1 at desolate container block of aJc...
Kok boon: k.b "thanz, u r welcum, wat r fWens for", big walk to thompson plaza...
Kenneth: RT, sinful gang, alcoholi, learnin to smoke
Koon Yin: Green, natural entertainer, ability to burst into hysterical laFters anytime
Delwyn: strong, my nemesis, learnin njc trickz, serene/sharon
Sheng Kiat: POW, aJc cassanova, ladies' man
Ivan: dumB, born joker, organize activities but fail to turn up

Sum1 asked me: who i lyk to i hav beside me right now.. A greedy ivan will ask fer 7 guyz, u noe who they r, maybe even to spend the rest of my life with them, wat we needed: tv, ball, 2 packz of cardz, pool table, aizat, mj, kazza, food, food and fooD. Although i knew well in the afternoon tat i shu go home n sleep, but i nvr regret dinning with them. friends r more anything n everything. 2dae---> Great food, Great people and Great time. Realli anticipate the next gatherin, muZ hav more hoRz...

reported by ivna @ 3:24 AM

Last midnight slept for 4 hours, guess later my sleep will be less than that. Petrified, dreamt of troeung hao once again, it's so scary to dream of someone whois in US now. i dreamt of him bald, came all the way back to singapore to look for me, still cannot figure out wat's the true meaning behind this dream (maybe i shu keep in contact with him).
Got to sch early toDaE, enabled to me to go to the pull.up barz. It has been a long time since i been to the pull.up barz in the morninG. Lessons were the same as before, only fallen asleep once in econz tutorial. Training todae: ran some distance, did some weights. Ended quite early toDaE, weights trainin quite slack. Here i am trying to listen the songs frm the 5566 cd, which i got frm cailing (thanz), dun really not their songs n the ppl in the band, i m too old:fashioned i guess. Still 50% fer the download of {the hours} part 2. Began doin hist term essay. Dun know why, emotions had begun to stir up in my body, doubts infringed into me and courage was hard to find.

Hey, more than angry words I hate this silence
It's getting so loud
Well I want to scream
But bitterness has silenced these emotions
It's getting hard to breathe
So tell me isn't happiness
Worth more than a gold and diamond ring?
I'm willing to do anything
To calm the storm in my heart
I've never been the praying kind
But lately I've been down upon my knees
Not looking for a miracle
Just a reason to believe

reported by ivna @ 12:16 AM

77 hours of not bloggin sets a new record. It has been a long time since i typed "www.blogger.com" on the address bad oF my interNet explorer. I had to appreciate sundays, because that's day i can get a great sleep. Woke up at 4pm on this faithfuL sundaE. Dreamt of y.c and troeung hao. it was so weird, for wat reason should i dream of tis 2 guys. Sad fact of the day: i did not achieve much, read through economics lecture note, did not really absorb all the information. History is tough, getting boring sometimes. My advice is: try not to take it for a levelz.
Took 4 hours to download {the hours}, and it's only disc1, will hesitate to download the next disc. Taking my eyes off the monitor, the room is choatic: papers are messy, stationeries thrown all over, phone on the floor, files behind the curtains. Undoubtedly, this word "tidy" has not come across my mind, though i love things to be neat. Too lazy, exhuasted mayBe, my direction in life is still unclear. i see no birds in the sky, no clouds over the green pasture and the sunlight is avoiding me.

A door was open
And into the night
I jumped through
And turned on the light
I started to see
Thought it wasn't that bright
I saw a island sky
but it wasn't all blue
My answers weren't right
But I didn't wanna lose
So I'd put up a fight
And scream out loud

I am trying to piece my life back, trying to file my stuff, arrange my papers, clear the mess in the room, enjoy a potent and meaningful life. Time management is the only key to success? Then, i will be the greatest failure in this world. I have to admit i waste too much time, so much that the world has turn more than 1 time. Not too late yet, an optimistic fool like me tryin to console his soul. Start working so that u will not regret in the end. Everything is ok in the end; if it's not ok, it's not the end. Have the courage to risk. If you do not try, you will never know u will fail. Success or not, doesnt really matter, it's the lesson you gain through the process that is valuable. Failure only produce a stronger being.

If I believe that I could do anything
Could I, spread my wings and say goodbye
So many people told me I couldn't win
But look at me now
Here I am in heaven's sky

New day tommorrow, or juz few hours later. I will be Back in sch, fighting seduction of sleep durin lessons. Walk around hcjc with a clear mind, try to be more alert. Training tml, will reach home very late, bless saya can survive. jiE, cant reply to u soon, i will redeem myself by writin longer blogz, hope u understand. happy belated bDae to edwin, i onli noE todae when weeshing told me online, soRRi, treat u tml. Dont expect me to blog further, coZ my eyes will bcum lyk wat they were on fridae. Realise i try not to use so many short formz, coZ i discovered that i cant spell simle words now, hahEz.

reported by ivna @ 1:58 AM

yeZdaE nite. occupied. 4got to blog. presently. still bz. felt the urge to blog.
yeZdae. rainin. dragon boat trainin. took taxi to kallang basin. swam in dirty water. trainiN ended at 1815. went to N.stadium to wash up. ran 7 rounds there. saw roy. my fav senoir. glad he remember me. rjc canoein appear strong. 4got to brinG fresh underwear to change. guess wat i did. waited fer bus 16. hell long time it took to cum. went raFF. city to eat. den took bus home wif zherui. got homE at 2230. missed xiaobao. cme online. chatted wif zhixuan. knew he's doin well in rjc.
labour day. good weather. woke up at 1230. stayed at home. bz wiF hist essay. doin while chattin. veri efficient. hope i can finish. my cousin survived, fever not sars. heeez...

reported by ivna @ 7:12 PM